still weak

This is my daily blog-for now at least I have been ordered to blog daily. I am still in a state of shock....a 25 year old grad student has me turned into a submissive "piggie" as she calls me. In addition to money, I now have started doing some research for her-I have been turned into her research slave....I realize she is now "hypnotizing" me and I cant do anything about it..she tells me to look at photos...and faster each time, I feel a wave of weakness come over me and all my "macho" resistance drains away..she then calls me back to the IM and does what she pleases with me as I respond "yes ma'am" to a woman 20 years younger than me.. I cant stop myself!!! I cant....i feel so weak-like a male lump......and I know what is next and cant stop it-more new photos to use while we IM which will make me even weaker....she will at some point call me or tell me to call her....make me give personal info over the phone so she has it in my voice, and the part I dread....I will be ordered to repeat humiliating phrases..or worse, I fear hearing the order "now bark"...."bark".."louder!!!" as she laughs on the other end...or "now oink like a piggie"..."OINK-NOW"..."MORE"..."LOUDER"..say "I am Goddess Aleenas piggie and oink"..... i cant imagine what that will feel like as I hear my own voice do this...and then of course, who knows....being ordered to meet her live as the final step and made to say and do humiliating things to then totally wrap me up and make me her slave forever...I have no idea how to get out of this...if you have any ideas, please let me know...I used to think I was smart, strong, lots of willpower...but look at my other blogs...I am not, and closer and closer to being her slave....

give up

ok..i lose..i lose...i lose...i admit it....now as we move to phone and if we ever meet, i will be totally enslaved...i thought i could resist...i couldnt...not sure how it happened...but will continue to blog about this...Goddess Aleena is too strong for me

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as ordered, Goddess

So I keep trying to figure out how I got here….I have a phd and Goddess Aleena is a graduate student!!! Now she is using me as her little research puppet, running around getting information for her!!! I should be her professor or mentor, and look at me…and now somehow she has me trained so that when I look at a photo of her and her friend, I turn into mush and she orders me about-like starting this blog-I have never blogged before-and look at these entries-the things I have to do and say….it is amazing…and now I worry that things will progress….she will crank things up and make me her chore boy –I can just see me wearing panties scrubbing her bathtub out….or she will take me to the photos and then on IM make me give her all kinds of personal info..my cell phone…wfies….work address…..my home address..whatever…and then even worse, what if I am in this weakened state and she calls me and makes me say my name out loud, makes me say yes maam over the phone…repeat my personal info…make me tell her I am her puppy and bark..or her “piggie” as she likes to call me and oink….and she hears that and I hear myself do it!!!!!!!!!!!!! I get like a zombie after the photos and her IMs telling me to relax and submit…….SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I don’t even want to think about seeing her live and what might happen…and now that the photos are getting a little old, what is she sends new ones with her or her and friends and I stare and get week….it could go on and on………..

i am a weak sissy faggot

Goddess aleena has ordered me to write about getting dressed inwomens clothes and sucking dick. i see myself putting panties on and then tight white pants and a pinkblouse. i have to put on lipstick and other makeup and must walk out in public..i am made to suck cock for her..she orders me to geton my knees, hands behind my back as she laughs at me..she uses a dildo then has a man use me....it is so humiliating..howdid it happen how could I be doing this...it is so strange..but i want to obey her and be good.....the man pulls out of my mouth and shoots all over me face...i cant stand it but she wont let me wipe it off...i must pay her then the next man comes in and it starts over....i dont know how this happend or even why i am writing this, but i hope it pleases her.

I worship Aleena

I have come to realize how much i worship goddess Aleena and encourage you to find her on niteflrit and do the same. I am not sure why I feel so weak, but i do and have to obey...i keep looking at her photo and feel so weak....i will be good. She also told me to tell you that i love to suck dick and so I do love to suck dick. I feel weak..she makes me feel weak and submissive...i am sure i will get weaker..i dont know how this happens..but it does....i worship Goddess Aleena

please goddess dont humiliate me

10make me call you maam and ever use the word "beg"
9 make me beg to and worship your feet and toes
8 spank me over your knee until i beg you to stop and make me get on all 4s ass up and get spanked until i beg you to stop over and over
7 smother me with your ass, rub it in until i beg to stop over and over
6 make me get on my knees and kiss your ass and worship it
5 make me suck a dildo
4 use a dildo on me
3 take photos of me kissing your ass, sucking dildo
2 same as 3 with gf there after you make me up as girl with panties makeup etc
1 same as 2 but photos..and then you hog tie me with dildo in mouth and photos