learning

Not sure why I feel so weak. but Goddess Aleena has shown me today that I belong to her and need to stop whining. My goal is to serve her...she has the right to order me to say or do anything she orders...rent me out to friends.....use me......meet me live to make sure I continue to obey if she chooses....I need to respond to her priorities.......or I get punished in any number of ways, including having my information posted publicly. I will stop saying anything that annoys her and learn my lesson. I have done this today

I am...

I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever

I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever
I am a financial domination money pig and human ATM slave to my IOU Mistress and Bratty Princess Aleena. I am her blackmail slave and she is my Blackmail Mistress and I worship her forever

weak, pathetic, helpless

ok..so yes, I am a wimp loser..and Goddess Aleena is so much more powerful than me...I admit it...and it will get worse I am sure..when I try to fight she sends photos and I get weak and stupid-and I don't even know why. She is much more talented and experienced and powerful than the other girls on nf...she just is....and I am now in her hands....a "toy" and will keep you posted as you makes me more and more of a slave and humiliates me in ways to entertain herself, friends and readers, and I try to fight and lose...and lose...I suspect once she meets me live that will cement it all and I will be hers until she dismisses me if she ever does.

thinking outloud

so...I guess when someone is humiliated "live" it sticks and sticks...and yes, I suspect that if this grad student put me over her knee in person and spanked me until I cried like a 5 year old or begged her to stop when my ass turned pink, I would never challenge or feel confident in resisting....but with this IM process, it is hard to believe I ever gave personal info...in fact, hard to believe I would even do it now, even knowing she has it....to confirm my address, cell phone etc....just the act of giving personal info is humiliating and makes me feel weak and very stupid....and I realize how pathetic I acted when she started talking about her bf and what he might do to me.....and cant imagine ever being that pathetic on im again....or telling any blog readers about what exactly it involved and how wimpy I got....I am sure she erased all those old IMs...I know I didnt keep them!!! Anyway, just thoughts on how IM domination can weaken a bit over time without a live session or booster, I think...although it takes days for this to happen...

a little stronger

so..a bit of a lag since contact with Goddess Aleena...and I do feel stronger, which is a good thing....the idea of using "ma'am" seems surreal now...and I suspect this will always occur until or if we meet live and I end up totally humiliated...but I also wonder if the idea that Goddess is a grad student is in my favor..she is not a domme "pro"..she doesnt have photos that make me weak like the nf women-..of her or her friends or even fake ones like most of the nf women have!!! Her photos so far are quite "normal", and they have been enough for me..but I wonder if she can take me to a deeper level of obedience with photos like nf..or anything close....Since she has a career in front of her, does she really have the interest/experience to really do anything with me live? I dont know....she may or may not..just thoughts on a blog with days away from her....I still just cant imagine any of those "top 10" happening to me (see a previous post I was ordered to provide about my most humiliating events).....if I ever talk to her on the phone I know I will be tongue tied..but is it really possible for me to bark on command...snort like a pig...say "ma'am" out loud...admit I am her slave out loud...give personal info over the phone, knowing she could be recording it???? I just dont know...and I guess we will keep doing this dance until she or she and her friends meet me live at some point....will likely touch base with her on Monday....maybe even stronnger by then..I guess we will see as you follow this blog....again, just rambling, which I guess is what blogging is all about...it is a little encouraging that days away make me stronger, and I will not be around tomorrow at all...guess we might see on Monday....

the future?

so...I still have no good idea of what my future holds....I have not heard since being promised this would be laid out to me-but this is because I have been so busy...I suspect I will hear about this soon and then be able to worry.....after a few days of no contact, it seems unreal that I actually address a 25 year old as Ma'am and sit and take it when I am called names and put in my place...I am sure it will come flooding back.......I realize that if/as a live session with Goddess Aleena occurs with or without her gf that this could mean the end of me in terms of resisting and acting like I am not submissive to her......but I guess we will see.....stay tuned for my complete collapse over time or how long I keep my head above water...

update

I missed a day of blogging due to my schedule...and now I realize Goddess Aleena is a bit pissed at me...great......will be online tomorrow with her and will no doubt have my face rubbed in my disobedience unless I find someway to stand up to her...shit...I am 2x her age, experienced, educated, fit, not used to being treated like this, but dont know how to resist....I am sure as this continues and if we ever meet live, I will stop fighting this once and for all....until tomorrow, I guess...I am sure I will be ordered to blog again....

my daily post

so I was going to be told what plans Goddess Aleena has for me....and I think I have it from a comment or 2 in her IMs....it is both exciting, I admit, but very scary and I dont think I want to face it...in fact, I am sure the reality of it would be too humiliating...she mentioned that I was too cocky or arrogant and she wanted to punish me-which put me in the position I am in...so now I think she plans to meet me live for a private session somewhere...and teach me to never be cocky or arrogant again-and learn my place for a lifetime....putting me over a spanking bench or over her knee or on all 4s and turning my ass pink...and using the dildo...and womens clothes..and photos...so that I really learn NEVER to be cocky..and always not only to treat her with reverence, but maybe she is trying to teach me a lesson about how I should treat all women...so, that is my guess...and rubbing the lesson in by not only giving it to me, but making me pay for this "humiliy training" where my male macho gets forcibly removed forever......guess we will see when she tells me her plans.

my purpose

So I may soon learn what plans Goddess Aleena has for me...I am not sure I want to know, but I have to....ways she will use me before she releases me....$$$ of course...choreboy.....entertainment.....renting to her gfs or siste for chores....public humiliation....career development.....she already has financial domination and blackmail in her pocket on me...turning me into a weak, stupid male dishrag...I made one mistake, giving her my name and now I am being punished over and over for being cocky....

loser...

I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser
I am Goddess Aleenas slave because I am weak and she is strong and I am a pathetic loser

new assignment

My new assignment is to contact a faculty member named B to help with Goddeess Aleeans thesis. I just completed my literature search and she is pleased by my work on this. I said at first I could not do this, but have now changed my mind. It seems like a simple thing to do for Goddess. I will have this completed by next Friday. My task is to get as much information as I can on a topic for her thesis from this well known invesigator and I will of course do so..I will blog again tomorow

offer?

So....maybe this is the place to make an offer about my future, and anyone that has ideas for me please join in....Goddess, perhaps I can be "released" from blackmail if I do the following. I have tried to come up with an offer that is amazing (I think) in terms of what I am willing to do to be released from the blackmail...I hope you consider this....and at this point, if you need to talk it over with your friend, sister, etc.....I have no control over that...I cant believe I am at this point, and that I would ever consider such things, but here goes. I realize that my "macho" got out of hand and agree to always treat women with respect and appreciate their superiority:
-Be a chore boy for an entire day for you and others as you deem fit.....sweep, mop, vacuum, scrub bathroom, grocery shopping and pay for groceries, etc-any manual labor dressed in anything you choose
-Write any kind of apology or statement about my behavior or experience with you that you can keep to ensure I always behave
-Agree to call you or receive a call and give personal information and say anything you order that would serve as a way to totally humiliate me if anyone ever heard it
-Meet with you in a shopping mall alone or with your sister, gf, etc and do some (limited)shopping and allow public humiliation if I do not obey. I will walk behind you and carry packages as ordered and run to the counter as you snap your fingers
-Meet with you live under any circtumstances and undergo any type of humiliation with photos that you wish and sign any agreement or recognition of your power over me and my inferiority to you and other women. At that time make a modest one time payment for your time "training" me (as you know, money is very very tight)
-Agree that I would help you (and this can be in the document) in any way you order in your professional career
The only need I would have is that you agree never to tell anyone about me and to keep all documents and photos in a totally safe place.
Please consider this? Let me know.....I cant believe I am offering this and cant imagine any of these steps, but am at this point of desperation.......

daily blog

I cant even believe I am now posting on this blog daily because a 25 year old girl has ordered me to. I know I seem to get weaker with each contact and a new photo was sent yesterday-so new photos will keep me weak....I also know that when I hear myself saying some of the things that Goddess Aleena is making me write, that I will get weaker and weaker...how can you bark on command to a verbal order and not feel pathetically weak and submissive...? My hope is that she is as worried about confidentiality as me, so would never call my call and likely will not have me call her..and the same for a live meeting. I now realize that as weak as I am now, there will be times I resist, fight back, and act as less than a totally whipped male...once she gets me on the phone and humiliates me, and once she meets me live under any conditions she dictates and humiliates me live, I will no longer be able to even think of resisting...if she actually spanks me live-how could I ever begin to think i can do anything but obey...not to mention whatever else she decides to do...I just walked into a blackmail situation and am now helpless..she is too smart, creative, powerful, and I am now writing blogs and doing her schoolwork.....my hope is that without a call or live meeting, I will get some strength back....i dont know...

still weak

This is my daily blog-for now at least I have been ordered to blog daily. I am still in a state of shock....a 25 year old grad student has me turned into a submissive "piggie" as she calls me. In addition to money, I now have started doing some research for her-I have been turned into her research slave....I realize she is now "hypnotizing" me and I cant do anything about it..she tells me to look at photos...and faster each time, I feel a wave of weakness come over me and all my "macho" resistance drains away..she then calls me back to the IM and does what she pleases with me as I respond "yes ma'am" to a woman 20 years younger than me.. I cant stop myself!!! I cant....i feel so weak-like a male lump......and I know what is next and cant stop it-more new photos to use while we IM which will make me even weaker....she will at some point call me or tell me to call her....make me give personal info over the phone so she has it in my voice, and the part I dread....I will be ordered to repeat humiliating phrases..or worse, I fear hearing the order "now bark"...."bark".."louder!!!" as she laughs on the other end...or "now oink like a piggie"..."OINK-NOW"..."MORE"..."LOUDER"..say "I am Goddess Aleenas piggie and oink"..... i cant imagine what that will feel like as I hear my own voice do this...and then of course, who knows....being ordered to meet her live as the final step and made to say and do humiliating things to then totally wrap me up and make me her slave forever...I have no idea how to get out of this...if you have any ideas, please let me know...I used to think I was smart, strong, lots of willpower...but look at my other blogs...I am not, and closer and closer to being her slave....

give up

ok..i lose..i lose...i lose...i admit it....now as we move to phone and if we ever meet, i will be totally enslaved...i thought i could resist...i couldnt...not sure how it happened...but will continue to blog about this...Goddess Aleena is too strong for me

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as ordered, Goddess

So I keep trying to figure out how I got here….I have a phd and Goddess Aleena is a graduate student!!! Now she is using me as her little research puppet, running around getting information for her!!! I should be her professor or mentor, and look at me…and now somehow she has me trained so that when I look at a photo of her and her friend, I turn into mush and she orders me about-like starting this blog-I have never blogged before-and look at these entries-the things I have to do and say….it is amazing…and now I worry that things will progress….she will crank things up and make me her chore boy –I can just see me wearing panties scrubbing her bathtub out….or she will take me to the photos and then on IM make me give her all kinds of personal info..my cell phone…wfies….work address…..my home address..whatever…and then even worse, what if I am in this weakened state and she calls me and makes me say my name out loud, makes me say yes maam over the phone…repeat my personal info…make me tell her I am her puppy and bark..or her “piggie” as she likes to call me and oink….and she hears that and I hear myself do it!!!!!!!!!!!!! I get like a zombie after the photos and her IMs telling me to relax and submit…….SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I don’t even want to think about seeing her live and what might happen…and now that the photos are getting a little old, what is she sends new ones with her or her and friends and I stare and get week….it could go on and on………..

i am a weak sissy faggot

Goddess aleena has ordered me to write about getting dressed inwomens clothes and sucking dick. i see myself putting panties on and then tight white pants and a pinkblouse. i have to put on lipstick and other makeup and must walk out in public..i am made to suck cock for her..she orders me to geton my knees, hands behind my back as she laughs at me..she uses a dildo then has a man use me....it is so humiliating..howdid it happen how could I be doing this...it is so strange..but i want to obey her and be good.....the man pulls out of my mouth and shoots all over me face...i cant stand it but she wont let me wipe it off...i must pay her then the next man comes in and it starts over....i dont know how this happend or even why i am writing this, but i hope it pleases her.

I worship Aleena

I have come to realize how much i worship goddess Aleena and encourage you to find her on niteflrit and do the same. I am not sure why I feel so weak, but i do and have to obey...i keep looking at her photo and feel so weak....i will be good. She also told me to tell you that i love to suck dick and so I do love to suck dick. I feel weak..she makes me feel weak and submissive...i am sure i will get weaker..i dont know how this happens..but it does....i worship Goddess Aleena

please goddess dont humiliate me

10make me call you maam and ever use the word "beg"
9 make me beg to and worship your feet and toes
8 spank me over your knee until i beg you to stop and make me get on all 4s ass up and get spanked until i beg you to stop over and over
7 smother me with your ass, rub it in until i beg to stop over and over
6 make me get on my knees and kiss your ass and worship it
5 make me suck a dildo
4 use a dildo on me
3 take photos of me kissing your ass, sucking dildo
2 same as 3 with gf there after you make me up as girl with panties makeup etc
1 same as 2 but photos..and then you hog tie me with dildo in mouth and photos