daily blog

I cant even believe I am now posting on this blog daily because a 25 year old girl has ordered me to. I know I seem to get weaker with each contact and a new photo was sent yesterday-so new photos will keep me weak....I also know that when I hear myself saying some of the things that Goddess Aleena is making me write, that I will get weaker and weaker...how can you bark on command to a verbal order and not feel pathetically weak and submissive...? My hope is that she is as worried about confidentiality as me, so would never call my call and likely will not have me call her..and the same for a live meeting. I now realize that as weak as I am now, there will be times I resist, fight back, and act as less than a totally whipped male...once she gets me on the phone and humiliates me, and once she meets me live under any conditions she dictates and humiliates me live, I will no longer be able to even think of resisting...if she actually spanks me live-how could I ever begin to think i can do anything but obey...not to mention whatever else she decides to do...I just walked into a blackmail situation and am now helpless..she is too smart, creative, powerful, and I am now writing blogs and doing her schoolwork.....my hope is that without a call or live meeting, I will get some strength back....i dont know...